Today is the first New Moon of the year and it falls in the magical sign of Aquarius. According to Mystic Mama:
"The Aquarian New Moon message: today is the first day of your life. The past is history. The future is a mystery. The present is the gift. All power is in the choices you make today. Use the New Moon to create a new life. "
Well, I am feeling this hard. As some of you know, the New Moon is an incredible time to make intentions for things you want to create and grow in your life. In reflecting on what I want my intention to be this month, I have been thinking a lot about my relationship to gratitude. The truth is, I use my "grateful" moments to beat myself up. What I am really saying to myself 90% of the time when I look around and appreciate is "...you don't deserve any of this. You aren't good enough for these blessings. You will ruin it. Basically, you suck." Then, guilt, sadness and anxiety follow suit. So fun!
So, my intention for this potent first New Moon of the year (and really, the theme for this entire year) is to feel worthy. To feel worthy and deserving of all the good in my life. Phew. It's a big one!