We just came out of the year of the Horse. Thinking back on this past year, it has been a whirlwind of amazing forward momentum. Something, according to legend, Horse years always bring with them! Reflecting on this past year myself, I feel I have accomplished a lot. We launched Girl Gift Gather, bringing with it the joy /responsibility of daily posts, weekly newsletters, Girl Gift Gatherings, the book club, and filming and editing the first 8 episodes of our series.
I had a baby! And have continued to work at my other company Brooklyn Baby Bumps where I make custom artistic pregnancy casts for women all over the city. Not to mention, trying to be a good mother, daughter, friend, partner and wife during this incredible transition in my life. As I sit in a small coffee shop around the block from our small apartment in Bedstuy, while my dear friend and her boyfriend watch over my son so I can write this very post, I take a deep breath, drink some chamomile tea and realize that in all the hustle and bustle and obligations and doing of things, I have lost touch with the joy and inspiration that I wish to ground and inform all of my actions.
The New Year has come at the perfect moment for me. The year of the Sheep is Yin. It is not about doing, it is about being. It's not about achieving, it's about enjoying a meaningful life. A life filled with depth, friendship and love. I's art for art's sake. It's poetry. It's nature. It's moments of solitude where you greet yourself as an old friend, and say... 'oh hello, I have missed you'.
I read a book few years ago called Circle of Stones. In the book, there is a passage that made me think of the Chinese year of the Sheep and the energy it represents:
“For me the balance between doing and just being is the most important and dangerous question. IF I am guilted or lured into achieving too much and lose the stillness in my centre, then it takes me a long time to regain it and I do violence to myself or those I love because of fatigue and pressure.
I have had to give up “winning big” because I love my life when I am connected to it. I hate it when it and I get caught up in competition and deadlines. Then I have an overriding sense of impatience, my foot taps…….. I gulp down my food whole……… I spill coffee when I am pouring and burn myself on the stove…… I rip, and wrench and tear. There is a violence that takes over every act and shrieks orders at me.
I am finding it takes a lot of time to be a woman, to have an inner feeling of space and breath, a chance to sink into myself…… as long as I take time to light a candle to my life, it remains my life. But if I hurry into work without that small moment of quiet then I have already lost myself for the rest of the day. The task for me is to care, daily, for myself and my life….. to love and to nurture, within myself, moment by moment, the quality of quiet presence, quietly being present in my life, which sanctifies it, to live as if the candle is alight"
Here's to a beautiful, creative, loving, inspired, grounding Sheep Year!